God has been convicting me to make some holistic health changes in my life and it's difficult. My spiritual health is connected to my physical, mental and emotional health, etc. It all matters, and one affects the other. It affects how much energy I have for the things I need to do and that God calls me to do.
The change does need to happen but it just takes so much energy because I've started before and then stopped. It's hard to restart again. But I have a choice in that. Do I restart again and keep going? Or do I say, ‘I can't seem to change so why not just keep rolling with the norm?’ This morning I found myself deciding to get back on the horse and keep going. Tears came. It's hard. it's tricky.
In trying to change, I can try to make a bunch of external decisions and forget that the Holy Spirit is right here with me, a 'present help' in time of need. He is our comforter, He is available, and He is wanting to help me navigate through.
Recently I've been thinking about Hebrews 10:39. It is about shrinking back vs. having faith. I don't want to shrink back from what is in front of me. I want to step forward in faith. I've been reminding myself of that, taking my little tears and continue moving forward.